This will be my last blog post for awhile, I have really enjoyed writing to my petite audience over the course of the last few months. And I thank you all for allowing me to be open with you about the various aspects of my life and journey to my RAENEWED LIFESTYLE. I have learned so much these last few months about dedication to healthy living which has so much to do with exercising and eating well but also as much to do with relationships and mental, emotional, and spiritual well-being.
I’ve gone back to willpower in the sense that my first post on this blog pertained to willpower and how it is an essential part of making healthy eating choices and pushing yourself to go exercise. And just this past weekend when I went to visit a friend I succeeded in putting my willpower into action by saying no to all the bad eating habits that I usually partake in when with friends. I was so proud of myself and I felt the best I’ve felt in a long time, and very confident in my skin. That confidence also had a lot to do with my success on my hair journey which I discussed in an earlier post. I was originally striving to wear my hair in it’s most natural state but now I’m back to the basics of getting my natural hair blow dried, and then heat styled with a curling iron. And I am so happy with it because it’s the hairstyle that I maintained during some of the happiest periods in my life.
On to love, I contacted the guy that I referred to in my last post and it’s not that I will find love with him. But it’s more about what I’ve found I value the most after having ample time over the last three years to reflect about my life, my regrets, and my mistakes. I really value more than anything, love. And I want to obtain love and I want to experience being in a relationship with the love of my life. Whoever that may be. I want to have quality, loyal, trustworthy friendships. And I want to have smooth relationships with all of my relatives. I also want to fall in love with my dream again and pursue it with vigor. These two songs below describe a lot of what I feel about love and life in the present. And we’ll all just have to wait and see what the future holds. As always…
This past week I have spent so much time researching blogs and websites, reading customer reviews, and watching YouTube videos in search of the best natural hair products for my hair. And after all of the work and not so much stress but rather anxiousness I was able to find a few great natural products to start my RAENEWED (hair journey) LIFESTYLE. I have always been a natural hair girl since I was born, I have never had my hair chemically processed but I have had my hair heat styled since the age of ten. I was actually one of those little girls who didn’t want to get her hair done, I would go with my Mom to the hair salon and watch everyone get their hair done and wonder why everyone made such a fuss. Even though outside of the hair salon I did aspire to have luscious long, big hair. And it wasn’t that my hair couldn’t grow longer and wasn’t in the process of doing so it was just that it needed a little more attention and hair growth effort than it was getting. As a little girl my hair got styled in mainly protective styles such as braids and twists with my own natural hair (the hair that grows out of my head). But instead of simply being in twists or loose braids, the braids were tight and the twists were tamed by rubber bands. And I always wondered why I couldn’t just wear my hair out, crazy, and big. And after starting to get my hair heat styled I could so I adjusted and eventually joined the hair craze because I could finally get my hair to do more stuff with less effort.
Over the years since beginning to get my hair heat styled I’ve experimented with wearing my hair in it’s most natural state which is without heat. And I loved those periods even though they were at times frustrating because working with my hair in it’s most natural state takes a lot of work. Well recently I went about four months without heat on my hair and it was an interesting experience. My hair was bomb and it boomed and got really big at times, and at other times depending on what products I used and how much patience I had my hair would turn out the total opposite of what I was going for. But then I thought that I would go back to heat styling because it is “easier”. Well it’s actually not because it stills takes care and I just don’t want to generally take time out to do anything to my hair although I know I need to. And it’s not that I don’t like my hair. I love it, it’s mine. It’s that I JUST DON’T LIKE DOING HAIR. Except maybe chopping the hair of my Barbie dolls into all different types of assortments as a child.
So I’m going on another journey for booming, bomb hair. And it starts with confidence, and ends with loving every part of myself fully and completely. The bad, the good, the ugly, the undesirable. On this journey I do find myself looking at all the natural hair mavens of today and wondering what’s in their fingers that makes their hair look so wonderful every time they do it, and in every picture they take, but I know they too have their rough days. I have decided to instead of letting myself be taken over by the green eyed monster of jealousy I will use these individuals as “hair envy inspirations”. If I find myself envying someone’s hair I can turn that envy into inspiration by being inspired by how they’re able to be confident in their hair and take the time out to really care for their hair, so that I too can be a hair whisperer.
I apologize for my absence over the last week but between college midterms and finally being on Spring break, I was completely exhausted. So I decided that this week I’m taking a little bit of a break from my fitness kick (actual physical exercise) because I AM TIRED. Instead I’m focusing on other aspects of my life that need improvement for a well-rounded, improved, RAENEWED LIFESTYLE. This post touches on my hair and the steps I want to take to improve it’s current state and get it to grow.
Hair is a big thing in my life and it’s definitely an area that needs improvement. Basically because I do not like doing hair. I’ve always been to that girl even from a young age who didn’t like to get her hair done and didn’t have time to fiddle with it. But in fifth grade I started going to the salon to get it professionally done and it’s been a little bit of worry ever since, because I cared more about making it look a certain way because I now knew that I could get it to look a certain way. Before I started getting it done I wanted it to look better but I didn’t really know if it had the potential to.
Now I’m at a point where I want to enjoy my hair but with a little less stress and over thinking included. While opting to have extremely healthy hair at all times. I am torn between still getting it heat styled or wearing it in it’s most natural wavy state (it’s always been natural I’ve never had it chemically processed). The time that I would have to put into maintaining it wavy would be tremendous but I do have the time. I just don’t want to take the time so this is a dilemma I’ll have to continue to debate. Wish me the best in finding that perfect hair balance.