There’s something about a deceitful person who finds it their goal in life to make people feel consistently responsible for everything bad that happens to them. There are two people who have been anchors in my life for a very long time now and I was really close to one of them. At one time I saw this person as my best friend but they chose to show exactly who I guess they always wanted to be via the way in which they behave when it comes to me in relation to the things that I tell the truth about. And the way in which I know I am right in presenting these truths is that when I present them this person proceeds to shut down the conversation in an effort to avoid its solution, almost as a wall of defense in the face of progress. 

I don’t know how my relationship with my immediately family is going to be moving forward but I do know that I want to be strategic in who and what I give my time to because even family can serve as the death of you. And as much as I have been raised to believe that family comes first and foremost many people in my life have succumb to merely nothing because of the very sacrifices they have made for family. The very fact that there is a bible verse about a friend being able to be closer than a sibling speaks to the fault within even the closest blood relationships. The verse says “A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.” (Proverbs 18:24) And please don’t confuse God’s word with my opinions and decisions, my point is that a friend can be closer than a sibling. And due to there being a lack of strength within some familial relationships. In my opinion sometimes there are boundaries that can and need to be formed even with blood relatives because some people just don’t get it. And that is okay.

Every day I will be putting time into being my best self even if that means distancing from those people who do not serve my life well, family or not. Not in a bitter way but in a true and authentic and genuinely protective and God driven purposed life type of way. I am constantly working towards being one with my potential and my best life and I will always work for things to improve for their best. I know that some people find it hard to be honest with themselves because of the many requirements and pressures of society. But honesty is a way of avoiding the very paths that bring stress, misery and your least fulfilled life. I am hoping that one day I will be able to live in some degree of harmony and respectfully reciprocal understanding with my immediate family. Until then I have to strive to stay alive and be healthy so that I can live on purpose for as long as possible. There is much to be done, and I believe I am someone who was called to do that “much”. XO, Raenewed Lifestyle